My ex boyfriend won't let me fall in love

Chapter 144

Chu Lingcen hugged Zong Shen, and slowly approached the vortex on the barrier of the world.

Just when Zong Shen was able to enter the vortex by leaning slightly, and when there was an undetectable relaxation between his brows and eyes, a hand suddenly pressed his shoulder, preventing Zong Shen from jumping into the vortex.

He was taken aback, holding himself back and not moving.

Chu Lingcen said softly, "You want to escape."

Zong Shen smiled at him again, not pretending to be a white lotus, and he couldn't pretend to be a white lotus in front of the current Chu Lingcen: "Yes, I want to go out, if I have to die, that's fine, I can live, I don't want to die. "

Chu Lingcen seemed to be smiling, and he said again: "You are very honest."

Zong Shen suddenly had some bad premonition subtly in his heart.

"Then I will tell you frankly." The former son of luck behind him said, "I will not let you leave alive, you are going to die here."

Zong Shen's face was so shocked that there were even obvious traces at that moment, but he cleaned up his gaffe in an instant, and continued to say with an attitude that was easy to handle and mixed with the domineering shadow of the year: "You want me to die here? Really? If I die here, in fact, I don’t lose money. I should have died on your operating table back then, but you saved my life, so I will return it to you now. As for other debts owed to you—”

He paused: "Just continue to owe it. So that after you reincarnate, because I haven't paid back the debt, you may lose something from time to time and have no peace."

Chu Lingcen lowered his eyelashes: "I know you are very good at deceiving people, but I only discovered today that you are so good at deceiving people."

"Let me guess what you are thinking now. You must be thinking about how to say it to evoke those memories of the past, how to say it to rekindle my feelings, and finally, step by step, let me personally send you out."

"No matter how pretentious you are, what you want is to escape." Chu Lingcen said coldly, and then stretched out his hand, just in time to pinch the dagger that was stabbing at his lower abdomen.

The wound in the lower abdomen was the fatal cause of his death when he was finally lost and attacked. When he became a soul body, it was also his biggest weakness.

Zong Shen is always very good at focusing on the key points, seeing the astonishment on the other party's face, Chu Lingcen thought so.

"You think you're sure to hit the ground running because I'm never going to be on my guard?"

The son of luck smiled, cold and indifferent: "It's a pity that Lan Ze——no, you are not called Lan Ze anymore, you are called Zong Shen. It's a pity that Zong Shen, you and he think highly of yourself and me too much .”

Chu Lingcen lowered his eyes again, and his eyes fell through the clouds and mist to the beautiful land below. He remembered that world, the world that raised him, also had beautiful flowers and forests.

Although zombies are rampant everywhere, human beings have never given up hope, and they are still struggling to move forward after being inflicted with countless scars by fate.

When we went out to collect samples, once we chatted around the bonfire, a soldier in charge of protecting him said: "My dad didn't make it through and turned into a zombie. My mother couldn't bear it, so she secretly opened and closed the door of my dad's room in the middle of the night. Let my dad bite her to death. I left a note saying that I want to die with my dad. My daughter-in-law was pregnant at the time, more than six months, and it was too hard to escape all the way. The child was born prematurely just after arriving at the base, just seven months old Big, when it was born, it was a small ball, like a kitten. The child was just born, and his mother died of postpartum infection before he even had time to take a look.

Many people said that it was impossible to raise him, but I thought I must raise him. He was born by my wife with her life.After my wife died, the child was my last relative in this world, and I had to raise him. "

Chu Lingcen told him to give him a set of books when he went back.

After the end of the world, books for children to learn have become a rare thing.

The dark-faced soldier shook his head: "Thank you, Professor, for your kindness, but it's no longer needed."

Chu Lingcen: "Are you still young? Then I'll give you milk powder."

The man who wiped the gun was silent for a long time, blinking his eyes hard, wondering if he wanted to swallow his tears back: "The child had a high fever when he was half a year old, so he went with his mother too."

The rest of the words were stuck in his throat, Chu Lingcen didn't know what to say, the wind was blowing, and the other people who were chatting just now quieted down at some point.

The soldier in his 20s who looked like he was in his 40s finally wiped his face and said, "Don't feel sorry for me. In this world, who is not like this? But I have to live, and I have to connect with them. Let’s live together, live for my parents, wife, and children who haven’t grown up, watching the world get better and better, I also believe that you, professor, can lead us to better and better.”

How did he answer it?

Chu Lingcen thought for a while and remembered——

He said: "I will take everyone to cross as much as possible."

Chu Ling Cen made a promise.

Later, he often worked day and night in the laboratory without sleep for two or three days. He ventured out with the soldiers to pick samples and personally measured the soil quality to design the city walls.

When he died young and was on the verge of death, his body had already collapsed, but Chu Lingcen didn't regret it too much. He just regretted that he couldn't fulfill the promise he made to the soldier back then, and he also regretted the life that his lover bought with his life. , he failed to keep it well.

——Until he didn't dissipate and turned into a soul.

It was not until he saw with his own eyes that his lover who died to save him reappeared and stole his ashes.

It was also at that time that Chu Lingcen realized that the so-called mutual acquaintance and love were just a scam.

It turns out that Lan Ze is the so-called raider, and he is the protagonist who is being attacked.

If it is said that Chu Lingcen was heartbroken by being deceived, but he was still able to hold himself back and control himself from resentment, it was just cold-hearted.

Then the moment he knew what the protagonist was, the hatred could no longer be suppressed, and it grew into a towering tree.

What is a protagonist?

It was the protagonist who was supposed to lead everyone out of the apocalypse and usher in a new world.

And he, the so-called protagonist, who once promised to lead everyone to the better, has ruined the vitality of mankind.

When the soul was attached to the ashes and Zong Shen led him away from that world, Chu Lingcen lowered his head for the last time with all his strength.

It is also above today's tens of thousands of feet above the sky, passing through the cloud of lead ash, and on the devastated land, he surveyed and mapped with his own hands, step by step, and measured the established base. The place called "Doomsday Hope" by many people is being destroyed by zombies and alien beasts destroy.

The city walls were shattered and the houses collapsed. Even though it was thousands of feet away, Chu Lingcen seemed to hear those desperate cries.

Later, he often thought that the world abandoned human beings. Those people, those he knew or did not know, were being compressed step by step in their living space, their relatives and loved ones were dying, and they were going to despair bit by bit, but there was no light in sight. , what is their mood?

"You're right, I hate you, and I hate myself."

Zong Shen couldn't see his indifferent and loathing gaze, and regarded it as unrequited love, he let go of the dagger generously, and a tender smile curled up on the corner of his lips.

"Why hate yourself? Love is involuntary."

Chu Lingcen did not answer this sentence, but murmured: "190."

Of course, Zong Shen didn't deliberately remember how many years he had passed, but he guessed that this number was either the days when they met, or the time between them from the time he cheated his death until today when they met again.

Then he heard the person behind him whisper: "It has been 190 years since I left my hometown."

Zong Shen was taken aback.

"For nearly 200 years, I have been thinking about how I should kill you when I have accumulated enough power."

The smile on the corners of Zong Shen's lips froze slightly, and he said as a cover-up: "It's not surprising that you want to kill me, after all, I lied to your feelings."

Chu Lingcen: "Until now, you are still trying to use those illusory feelings to win life from me."

"I was originally such a selfish and despicable person, and I tried my best to live. I lied to you back then, and you wanted to live. Now I want to use you, but I also want to live." He knew Chu Lingcen, and he knew Honest selfishness is always better than hypocritical meanness in a situation where there is no secrecy at all.

Chu Lingcen seemed to be laughing, the laughter was soft and long-lasting, but it hit Zong Shen like a silent hammer: "You want to live, and those who never give up no matter how difficult and painful they are in the last days also want to live .”

He tilted his head and asked, "What were you thinking when you said that they were bitten by zombies, their bones were crushed by alien beasts, they died of starvation and despair, and they were infected and struggled to death?"

"I never had unnecessary fantasies before, but I have spent nearly 200 years thinking about how you should die, whether to crush your flesh and blood or cut your throat." When Chu Lingcen said this, his voice was neither distorted nor distorted. It wasn't intense, it was as calm as talking about the past with an old friend, even a little far away, but Zong Shen's heart sank completely.

"I don't know that it will cause such consequences." Zong Shen said with a dark face, he no longer tried to impress Chu Lingcen with warmth, "And is it all my fault?"

Chu Lingcen: "You are vicious, I am stupid, we are all guilty."

Zong Shen said gloomyly: "You definitely want me to die here, and you don't think about the love you had back then? You said you loved me back then, and you can give me whatever you have. Now I just want to live, you Give me a way out."

He knew that Chu Lingcen had always kept his promise, once he promised to give him anything, and later on, as long as he had it, as long as he wanted it, he would give it to him.

Chu Lingcen felt it was ridiculous. In his hometown, tens of thousands of his fellow clansmen had died. In the eyes of this person in front of him, it was something that could be offset by light affection and so-called love.

"You raiders, do you all think that feelings are the most unfavorable thing in the world?" Chu Lingcen's voice became colder and colder, "I disappointed you, there is no so-called love and affection between us, only blood and deep love." hatred."

Zong Shen was stunned, and he retorted subconsciously: "Impossible, you love me, you said you will always love me, how could you not love me! You will not stop loving me!"

"Love is something as small as dust and can be discarded at any time. Didn't you already know that?"

The speaker's tone was flat, but Zong Shen's eyes widened suddenly, full of disbelief.

At that moment, Zong Shen didn't know what he was thinking. He only knew that a huge absurdity rose from the bottom of his heart, making him want to ignore it and shout "You are lying" and "Impossible".

But he understood better that Chu Lingcen would not lie, what he said was true, so that Professor Chu who said that he would give it to him as long as he had it, really gave up his love for him.

Zong Shen felt that his heart didn't hurt at all, it was just empty, and the wind whistling.

After a long time, he finally closed his eyes and said to Chu Lingcen, "You can kill me, it's not too bad to die in your hands."

Chu Lingcen shook his head: "I won't kill you."

Zong Shen was stunned for a moment, and at this moment, a little spark rose in his heart. He didn't know if it was because he saw the hope of life, or because Chu Lingcen seemed not to be able to completely cut off his feelings.

"Don't you really want to kill me?"

Chu Lingcen didn't answer this question, he said: "You stretch out your hand and try this passage."

"If you try, you will let me pass? Or do you just want to see the despair that I can't get out of when I have already found a way out?"

"I will not interfere."

Zong Shen was dubious, but everything, including the indistinct nostalgia and feelings for Chu Lingcen, was not as good as living. After deliberately waiting, he still couldn't help stretching out his hand.

The barriers of the world are indestructible, but this vortex opened by the "Gate of the Extraordinary" is different. Zong Shen successfully stretched out his hand.

But before his uncontrollable joy appeared on his face, severe pain came from his arm.

His arm, starting from the place where it touched the vortex, was smashed to pieces.

The soul has no flesh and blood, and will not fly blood, but the pain caused by the loss of the soul's arm is ten times and a hundred times that of the crippled soul!

Chu Lingcen approached him, his voice was smiling but cold for no reason: "I forgot to tell you, from the beginning to the end there is no way of life, only death."

"You tampered with the door of transcendence?!" Almost subconsciously, this sentence blurted out

Chu Lingcen remained silent and looked at this person carefully. He had never seen Zong Shen more clearly than now, and even wondered why he liked this person back then?

After those words were uttered, Zong Shen suddenly realized that even if Chu Lingcen wanted to kill him, he would never choose the way of tampering with things, "I don't want to say that—"

He saw Chu Lingcen's eyes, plain and calm, and suddenly, the illusory, unreal Chu Lingcen just now didn't love him anymore, and it turned into a hailstorm of reality.

It's strange, he doesn't love this person, why does he feel uncomfortable?

Chu Lingcen turned his gaze to the vortex of the barriers in the world, and said with a slight smile, "This world is a giant net with no entry but no exit, and it is the burial ground of any raiders. Do you know why there are so many Is the invader coming? Because the world is trapping you, in order to supply the children of luck, the protagonist in your mouth grows up. From the moment you step into the barrier of the world, the way for the attacker to leave behind has disappeared."

Zong Shen realized something, and his voice was hoarse: "Why do you know?"

"You have received the news that there is an advanced world with plenty of energy, right?" Chu Lingcen said softly, "Why do I know? Because this news was generated by the system I induced you, and because I came here earlier Before, I knew that this world would be very dangerous, so dangerous that as long as you come here, you will definitely die here."

It seemed that that layer of cover had been pierced, and Zong Shen finally felt the power to extract his origin that had existed since he entered the world, but had been ignored by him all the time.

The world is like a hungry flytrap, but they are overwhelmed mosquitoes with their eyes covered.

Chu Lingcen: "I've thought about it for a long time, and I think this method of death is the most suitable for you, and it's desperate enough."

"Desperate like so many people," he murmured.

Zong Shen's eyes gradually blurred. At the last moment of his life, despair, unwillingness, and resentment filled his heart.

Maybe there is still a touch of regret, but maybe it's just a possibility, is there really, who knows?

Watching this person slowly fade away, his soul disappearing, and the hand grabbing his sleeve disappeared into the air, Chu Lingcen closed his eyes: "Goodbye, Ze."

It was not Zong Shen who said goodbye, but the lover who never existed.

The author has something to say: In fact, if Chu Lingcen had known about the Son of Luck and the Raiders back then, even if he really loved Zong Shen to [-]%, he would have ruthlessly killed Zong Shen, but he didn't know, He thought that the love between himself and Zong Shen in troubled times was to support each other.

And, the world is the real big boss or something

World awareness: Raiders are all my rations!

It took almost two chapters to describe his death method, Zong Shen can be said to be very popular